Life, An Update, Growing Up, Keeping The Faith.
I have to say, this year has been an enjoyable one. When I count my blessings that is; I’ve had my share of pains and tears this year.
So I’ve moved into my first proper apartment and held down two jobs in the same year. I say proper apartment because I lived in a shack of a studio that had carpet literally growing mushrooms. I never walked around the place without slippers on. That should make your toes curl.
It was so hard (Lol) but I’m proud that I gained the courage to do it. It was so difficult financially I felt so stupid for leaving my mum’s in the first place. I was scraping pennies. But I had to push myself. There’s a picture I’ve painted and that’s the only thing I’m going for. Nothing less.
For those of you who are contemplating getting there own places, it’s possible. If someone like me can do it, anyone can. I moved into an unfurnished apartment and had no furniture to furnish the place. All I had moving into my new place was, basic cutlery, 2 plates, 2 glass cups, 1 frying pan, 1 cheap ting saucepan, an inflatable bed and a blanket. Not a duvet set, but a blanket. The list does NOT go on.
Do not feel sorry for me, I moved out in that state intentionally. I wanted to put myself in a position where it was either I worked for it or never got it and suffered that consequence. I wanted to be in a position where if I didn’t get out of bed and work, I wouldn’t eat. I wanted to push myself; put myself in an uncomfortable place; things were getting comfortable and unproductive. I’d desired to move out for over year and was looking at furniture. Then God said to me, “So where will you get the bed delivered to? The sofa, the table? To your mum’s?” - Rah. From that moment on it made me realise that sometimes God wants to bless you and answer your prayers but you’ve made no room for the answer; you’ve not prepared to receive the answer. That’s when I took the step to put money aside for a deposit.
My back was in crumbs the first week. The inflatable bed did nothing for me. Mum helped me move out, then called me a few days later and gave me money for a bed. Praise Jesus because I do not know how I was finna do another night on that inflatable and I wasn’t going to buy a bed for another 3 weeks! Then slowly but surely, I saw God fill my house with what I needed. He used men to favour me in doing so. I hadn’t prayed to God for furniture, I was saving for everything and planning on buying something new every month, bit by bit.
I don’t come from a rich background. You may say well it’s easy for you, it’s not so expensive where you live. I can decide to build a mansion and sell it for £4m. Location is irrelevant to some extent.This is about taking that leap of faith in what you’re trusting God for and allowing your trust to be without borders. Pushing yourself to lean not on your own understanding.
You’re trusting God for that thing that looks so far away. So unreachable. So impossible. That you have no idea how to attain. A place you have not the slightest idea of how you’ll get there.
God gave me a vision 2 years ago. I penned down what route and strategy to take to achieve the goal. I spoke to specialists about realising the project I came up with. They sent me a quote. The dream died instantly. Fell to the ground. It caught dust for a very long time.
I picked the project back up off the shelf, blew the dust off, tweaked it and wrote the idea again on fresh paper. At the top of the page I wrote,
“Nothing written in this book will be written and not come to pass.”
After finishing writing, I put my hands on it and presented it to God. Speaking what I wanted to see in the next month, the next 6 months, the next 5 years. Calling forth all it will take to realise the project. Then gave thanks for the challenges and thanks to God.
What faith actions have you taken towards the goal?
I’ve planned how I’m going to achieve this project next year and I don’t know what challenges are coming my way. But my confidence is that God is the one who gave me the vision so He has to make provision for it. I’ll do my part and prepare myself to be used by Him.